Sam

Wed, 04 Sep 2002 23:26:25 GMT

I feel terrible never writing in this thing. Alex is always like
"write something, anything" so here it goes... I should go get dressed for converge tonight but i like waiting till the last minute while everyone calls me yelling cause i am late. I guess this summer was great, better than most. I thought I would be a loser with no friends but everything turned out. I got to go to europe, go to some really great shows and hang out with some fun people. I am excited for senior year. I really wish high school was over but i know it will go by really fast. My schedule is super easy for the first time and i just want to relax and have fun. College applications are a joke and i dont want to do them but i guess i will live. My parents are letting me go to shows on school nights and so that makes me even more happy. All the girls on the tennis team are actually not killing each other. were getting along like good girls without too much drama. Today i played a long set against lauren salgado and i beat her in the tie break 8-6 and broke 2 raquets in the process. one i hit along the side of the net post and the other i through up as high as i could and saw how badly it broke when it hit the ground (man i am tough). So yeah, i guess i'll stop procrastinating and get on with my life. bye

Sun, 18 Aug 2002 14:16:49 GMT

I am back from my trip. I havent been able to sleep for hours. I think i have been up for 80 hours. I tried to sleep last night. It's never going to work since all this shit has gone on while i am gone.
Still i am so glad to be home. I have been with mom, dad, and russ for 10 days straight and the only time i ever really got time on my own was in the bathroom. England was awesome. I really loved it there. I love the metro system, the way people talk and the weather. I wish i could live there. We went to westminister abbey, big ben, london eye, buckingham palace, windsor castle, 2 plays, i went to a show at this place called the garage, tower of london and of course wimbledon. Wimbledon was such a dream. I walked out onto center court and it just started pouring down rain. it looked right off the television something i had seen but really never seen before. I got to sit on Henman's hill and even saw a guy i used to hit with a couple years ago there.
Paris was really nothing i want to do again. I am sure it would have been better with friends but still i didnt like it much. I guess it's beautiful and there is plenty of museums to see but after a while you cant look at another painting and the streets smell. The people are rude and it's humid there. The only thing good is the food, the food is excelent.
My family was better than i thought they would be. I think i regressed by five years just hanging out with my lil bro so much.
Anyway, i am home.

Tue, 06 Aug 2002 09:36:14 GMT

Wow, i never write in this thing anymore. I am leaving for England tomorrow. I guess i am excited. I will finally see Wimbledon and that is supposed to be my ultimate dream so i guess I should be even more happy. Well until August 17th i will see you all later. Have a good week! <3 Sam

Wierd Experience

Mon, 15 Jul 2002 19:37:45 GMT

Ok so here is my odd trip to San Diego for you:

I drive down to Carlsbad to see this girl that was on my tennis team freshmen year. Her and I were never great friends but she invited me to come down and I figured it would be fun to get away from home. So I get to her house around noon.

She comes to the door and I am really suprised. She has changed so much, it didnt look like her at all. She had three layers of color on her hair, white, brown and purple. She said she did it for all these reasons like white for virginity, purple for wildside. I dont know she had explanations for all these things. Her room was like this feniminist and vegan activist pride place. i remembered her as this tennis playing smart kid before and thats all.

So we get in her car and i am thinking that we are going to go to the beach or something and we end up in this artsy hippe neighborhood where she knows everyone. Everyone is all about peace and love and I am feeling noxious. We stubble upon this cool vintage store and then i see this wierd shack and inside is a cd store. i go inside and i am in heaven it's better than bionic and i spend a lot of money there, still amazed that this place is in the middle of nowhere and surrounded by hippes.

Next stop we go to this art cafe. Where jessica proceeds to introduce me to all the artists and we talk about shapes and colors. then we stop at some more vintage dress shops.

So we leave Carlsbad and head down to san diego. Next stop is Hillcrest but i have no idea what that is. There is rainbows everywhere, from signs to side walk chalk, to rainbow mailboxes. i am a nieve bastard and think nothing of it. So we get out of the car and there are more vintage dress shops. I go indside there is actually a section for flaming gay clothes with a sign. i want out of this place bad but jessica is trying on clothes. So as i am walking around this store i am trying my hardest to look at the ground. As i look up this girl smiles and winks at me. How Marie Claire! I smiled back feeling uncomfortable then i looked at her shirt and it says Gay Pride. I find Jessica we get out of there and she gives me the spiel about how I have to be more open. How i am shletered cause i live in mission viejo. We get something to eat in a wierd rubios and i think i am the only straight person there.
Finally we get out of there and she takes me to some street where only midgets live and everything is small. I am kind of getting a kick out of all this wierd stuff but in the same way i am holding my tongue the whole time. So i dont fracture jessicas precious orb and send her into a yoga frenzie.

After the midget street she realizes i want something normal so we go to UCSD. I get to see the campus. it was kind of creepy there were trees everywhere. It looked like it was in the middle of a forest. The library was cool it looked like a space ship.

it's getting really late and i am cold so i change into comfy clothes and all i had brought was a throwdown shirt to sleep in.

It's about 8:00 and were still at UCSD. I am wondering what is next for the to-do list.

We drive over to this buliding and she tells me were going to a show. She doesnt know what bands but were going to a show. I look over and it's the Che Cafe. i have heard of it but never been there. I know some good bands play there so i was excited. I look over and there are all these punk kids with hot pink mohawks now i am really not looking forward to this anymore. So we get out of the car and some kid comes up to me and laughs and my throwdown shirt. jessica starts speaking for me and saying "why cant we all just get along". i feel like i am going to get my ass kicked at any moment. The place is pretty cool it's like a big house. I found a comfy spot to sit and just people watched. The bands ended up being pretty good, desperate measures and dragnet. I ended up talking to the bass player of dragnet he came up to me and started talking finally he was getting annoying I asked jessica if we could leave.
After the show we go to a hooka lounge where they smoke bongs and i step in this place and run out to the car. jessica is like so excited and i am like i am sorry I am never going in there.

Finally the night is ending and she takes me to Questhaven a haunted street with black houses, a broken down psycho hospital and a cemetary. I wasnt into this at all i was scared to death i held on to my slurpy and screamed "I love my life i dont want to die".

So that was my odd day. Seriously one of the oddest days of my life if not the oddest. now i am home and happy to be back in my safe mission viejo.

Sat, 13 Jul 2002 12:27:07 GMT

First it was 3 weeks, then 3 months and now I find out its going to be at least a year. I am so tired of this...
The past week i have been getting too many calls from Berits family. usually i get a kick out of them but after a while i get too much information on the little things she is doing and it starts to suck. So last night i am at work and i get a call randomly from her mother again. So i go over there after work missing my parents huge party. her sister and mother bombard me with pictures. Gretal of drunk college photos and Mrs. Stingley with pictures of berit from their visit.
I think it was the photos that sort of made me feel sick. berit is like enjoying doing work, hugging her mother, hugging her new friends. She has also gained like 30 pounds which sucks. it just wasnt her.
The next thing you know it Berits mom is telling me about jay and how he is doing. I guess he is in Utah now at some school. He is doing GREAT! If this is what doing great means? he is not straightedge anymore, he has gained 30 pounds and he doesnt miss his friends back home anymore.
When she tells me these things she always acts like "Sam get happy your friends are getting better". when really i am like "they are changing so much maybe i dont even want to know them when they get home". the last bit of news was that jay isnt coming home in august he is coming home around the same time as berit.
So you know what this is my last entry about them, time to move on. I cant wait any longer for them to come home and when they do I have to realize they are going to be totally different people.

On a good note i get home and so many people have been at my house, bre, kevin, jason, lauren, jackie they are all waiting for me. I needed them cause i felt shitty.
My parents had this huge party last night and there was cheesy band playing songs like "Brick house". We actually had a pretty enjoyable time just watching all the old drunk people.

Later on in the night I hear this guy come up to my mother "Grace is this what I have to look forward to" he asked. "So when my daughter grows up she is going to have creepy posters on her wall, listen to crappy music and worship Hitler. i was laughing so hard cause my mom didnt know what to say. All she said was "Sam is a good girl she plays tennis". I dont really know where this guy got such an evil vibe from me but he was so pissed. I dont know why he thinks i worship hitler but ok.

I guess that is all that is happening I lead a boring life. I am leave for a few days to San diego to see an old friends so it should be fun. Bye

Sat, 06 Jul 2002 01:44:54 GMT

I try to tell myself that everything is great. I say to myself here I am I have great friends, family and a reasonobly fun life so why should i ever be angry? Nothing could possibly be worse than last summer and the things I went through.
I always said i couldnt like someone again it hurt too much. it was inevitable that it would happen again but it took so long i was beginning to think that it would never happen.
When it finally did happen it felt so good. Like my heart was alive again. I fell into it just as I had before only this time a little more cautious of the let down.
This time he drifted more gradually from my arms. I lied to myself trying to believe that i was better than him. Putting myself so above him in my head that it was almost embarrasing for myself to believe i could care for him.
Truth being i am just a coward. i am not better than him. i am the one that was rejected i am the loser again.

Ok so now that i have unleashed my anger here is what i was origanally going to write before i realized i was lying to myself.

Ok, lately i have just been to lazy to write in this thing.
Summer so far has been really great!

I am almost never bored and when i am there is always someone there to sucker me into giving them a ride.

Summer school is torture but i have befriended some young kids in my class and slowly begun to enjoy their company.

I havent been to too many shows. i went to bleeding through and that's about it.

I got my Disneyland pass again. I twisted my ankle there so every other day i cant walk and whine about the pain.

Bre and i have spent most of our evenings just picking and choosing random groups of friends to hang out with.

I went to see Dan Fogelberg with my dad. I was the youngest there but it was a nice bonding experience.

Fourth of July was fun we all went to the lake, bre's party, laurens party and back to my neighbors to let off fire works and kevins M80's.

I guess that brings us to today and in a few short minutes i will be in another awkward painful situation so sit back and think about me, cry a little and someday if you see me pat me on the back and tell me it will be ok.

Wed, 26 Jun 2002 06:13:01 GMT

~ So another summer has approached us.
The end of the year for me was really fun. It's sorta sad that you dont realize close friends might not be in your life as much until the end when it is finally over. I got to go to a couple small graduation parties and its been pretty enjoyable.
~ I didnt go to undergrad, I am so proud of myself. I broke the curse so now nothing will happen to me on the first day of summer. Instead I hung out with Lauren and Steve which was so strange considering all of us have not been in contact for a while.
~ The past couple days I have been thinking about college a little too much. Once i saw everyone graduating the other day i just flipped out and started researching and things.
~ Ironically i got my SAT test back and i was pleased.
So here is my list of colleges so far: (tell me where i should go)
* University of Nebraska
* University of Kansas
* University of Iowa
* University of Washington
That's about it for me. These states seem pretty random but these are ones i can play tennis for. I am going to be a nervous wreck until i find out where i am going.
~Summer school is death. Mr. Grabowski is an asshole. All the kids in my class are young and this is all to fix a minor gpa problem in case i cant get into college.
~There is sort of an eerie vibe about this summer. The last couple ones have been to different. Berit would force me to go to disneyland with her every day. Last yesr was even better cause we finally drove and we were starting to go to shows. i guess there is just no new experiences to look forward to.
~I guess i need a new hobby. this summer should be fun.... but if it isnt i will tell myself it is even if i dont believe it.

Thu, 20 Jun 2002 00:47:19 GMT

Wow school is done. I really cannot believe it is over.

After school Bre and I went to lunch with some Dana guys she knew. All of a sudden rob, devin, and hootan come to sit down with us while we are eating at the food court. After we eat Hootan says, "Call me when you get to your car".
So now I am thinking what sign did they put on my car. We get there and there is nothing. So i pull out and hooter and devin drive by with my purse, bre's yearbook and some other things. So we follow them, driving all over, boys love chases and finally after a half hour of chasing them we give up and go to physical therapy.

So after Physical therapy we call rob and he tells us if we want our stuff to go to hooters house. So we get there and on the door is a picture of my purse opened up with condoms inside. Next to my purse is a sign that says "Samantha Megan Woog's purse". Then there is a note that says look across the street. So we look across the street and they all drive by with the stuff. So after some pressure they get out of the car and we get our stuff. In the hour we had been away they had used up an entire roll of film in my car, bought condoms and gotten pics developed, i was very impressed.
I never knew they had it in them, haha really the funniest thing yet out of those guys.
You seriously are all going to get it. watch out bre and i have a plan!

Sun, 16 Jun 2002 20:02:35 GMT

If you are not my friend and you are manic depressive or need any sort of pill to make you normal please do not contact me or try to be my friend. I have decided that i am a magnet and one by one my friends need more and more attention. I am not Nurse Ratchet and I dont need to be another healer of the sick to any more people, thank you. <3 Sam

Wed, 12 Jun 2002 04:07:19 GMT

After school Bre, Amber and i went randomly driving. We picked up some pictures from friday night wich were horrid and should be burned.
We go to Kinkos and some old lady talks to me for a half an hour about how my dress looks like something she would wear way back when. I am looking over at Bre and Amber to help stop this conversation but they aren't even noticing.
So then i see the funniest damn thing I have ever seen in my whole life. We are going up the big hill by Bre's house and we see two girls walking dogs. I think nothing of it but then Bre says, "Oh there is a dog with 3 legs" she says it so unamused that we all bust up laughing. So Amber screams and I slow down and i saw the 3 legged dog and we all bust up laughing even more. It had a wheel strapped to it so there were like 4 legs technically. The dog looked in utter pain plus this is a beastly hill. So as we are laughing i look in the mirror and the girl is like flicking me off and cussing at me from behind. All we did was laugh at the dog i guess we really offended her. We drove past the dog again and the girl just looked at us in disguist. I guess you had to be there.
Well this is all I got for you right now. I cant say my life has been too exciting.
Amber I know you will get a kick out of this.

Tue, 04 Jun 2002 21:07:47 GMT

If you could act like I am alive for one moment maybe I wouldnt feel so shitty.

Sun, 02 Jun 2002 19:09:10 GMT

So this weekend has been extremely wierd since I am not used to spending time at home. I had SAT's and I really thought I was going to be early for them. I showed up and there was 2 bazillion people, it was crazy. Desiree says to me, "i swear berit is here". I started laughing cause it's impossible. So she runs over to this girl and she really did look like berit from the back and grabs her. Mind you it is like 6am so this girl was scared. Then she turns around and i really cant believe it cause she looks just like Berit. she turns and is like, "omg desi and sam". I look into her face and it's Kristin Bronowicki the #1 tennis player at Dana. Wow, that was a wierd moment. It was more of a scary reunion I saw so many people from my past I was frightened. it's very wierd not have a job for a while. I have all this free time. So now i am actually playing tennis and getting into shape again. This is fun tennis makes me have adrenaline and this forces me to be happy! I really could bounce of a wall right now and jump from my house all the way to disneyland. maybe tennis was the answer to my problems. haha i never ever thought I would say that. i am going to stop typing now before I make a bigger ass out of myslef.

Fri, 31 May 2002 17:57:05 GMT

I am sorry if I have been a raving bitch this week. I dont really know what has come over me.
I think it was Nebraska, watching men play nut ball, tennis, seeing all my friends be in love, long discussion with cindy, amy and eileen about life, and the fact that I have SAT's tomorrow morning.
I was on the plane to Nebraska and I was thinking the whole time about my life. I hate when i think cause then i get really angry it is best to just listen to music and try not to think.
I decided that right now I wish i could punch berit and Jay really hard in the face. They leave and I am left here all alone doing the same damn routine every day. All the little stupid inside jokes and rituals we had (like eating in the produce aisle of Pavilions every friday night before we would go out). All the little things I really miss. And the thing is that I know they are out there somewhere missing me too, but at least they dont have to go to Pavilions or drive by the park and think "wow that's what I used to do". Instead they are looking forward to the day when they get to come back.
Also, i know a lot of the things I have been doing lately they wont like. I have always sort of been the follower and I dont think when they get home I will be the same way. Something has changed and I can't figure it out.
So I am going to continue to be bitchy until something good happens or maybe I realize what is wrong inside of me.

Nothing happened this week I quit my job for a month. My bro's friends mom asked me if I wanted an internship with KROQ this summer. It sounds really interesting and I am kinda excited about that.
I really am thankful for Cindy, Amy and Eileen. Sometimes I forget you guys are there for me and I am glad you are.

Updating

Fri, 24 May 2002 17:32:14 GMT

I am finally updating you on my life. Hmm... what is happening? Nothing really as usual.

I went to 18 visions on saturday night. All in all a pretty decent night. I am really tired of Avenged Sevenfold after seeing them for like the 30th (exagerrating) time in the last few months. Alex came with her friend Seana they wanted to finally go to a core show I was happy to see them there. Liam finally came. Then the usual entourage of people showed up making the night enjoyable.

I think i am going to quit my job. It seems so rediculous right now to even have one. All the people that I really enjoyed working with are leaving and I need to focus on tennis. So... I most likely will have more free time and not be stressed out from my unintelligent job. What really made me sure that i wanted to quit was when they made me clean toilets for the models. I am not a janitor nor am i a servant.

I have a cool final in mass media where I get to write reviews for a newspaper I am trying to take it all serious because i am actually interested in the assignment. I hate testing so i have ditched a couple of my SAT classes to read at the beach i really love that i am going to start doing the more often.

Tennis team drama is finally over and everything is back to normal.

Joe says he got an echo but i believe he is lying.

My little brother is turning into a monster. He seriously thinks he is the coolest kid that ever walked the earth. He gets an average of 10 calls from little girls each night. He is starting to care about his image and he made my mother buy him 160 dollars in outcast clothes. He buys women shirts and is bribing me with money to bring him home SXE orange county shirts from shows. My mom makes stupid comments when he comes down the stairs like, "haha he looks like one of sams friends". I never thought he could be this dumb.

So I am leaving today for my lovely Nebraska Trip. i am angry because there is so many exciting things happening this weekend and I will have to miss them all. Plus, my parents are going to San Francisco wich would have meant i would be home alone. Maybe i will try to miss my plane... Anyway, everyone have a terrific weekend see you when I get home I will bring back plenty of corn and maybe a nice redneck male.

That pretty much brings you up to date with my highly exciting life!

Updating

Fri, 24 May 2002 17:29:35 GMT

I am finally updating my life. Hmm... what is happening? Nothing really as usual.

I went to 18 visions on saturday night. All in all a pretty decent night. I am really tired of Avenged Sevenfold after seeing them for like the 30th (exagerrating) time in the last few months. Alex came with her friend Seana they wanted to finally go to a core show I was happy to see them there. Liam finally came. Then the usual entourage of people showed up making the night enjoyable.

I think i am going to quit my job. It seems so rediculous right now to even have one. All the people that I really enjoyed working with are leaving and I need to focus on tennis. So... I most likely will have more free time and not be stressed out from my unintelligent job. What really made me sure that i wanted to quit was when they made me clean toilets for the models. I am not a janitor nor am i a servant.

I have a cool final in mass media where I get to write reviews for a newspaper I am trying to take it all serious because i am actually interested in the assignment. I hate testing so i have ditched a couple of my SAT classes to read at the beach i really love that i am going to start doing the more often.

Tennis team drama is finally over and everything is back to normal.

Joe says he got an echo but i believe he is lying.

My little brother is turning into a monster. He seriously thinks he is the coolest kid that ever walked the earth. He gets an average of 10 calls from little girls each night. He is starting to care about his image and he made my mother buy him 160 dollars in outcast clothes. He buys women shirts and is bribing me with money to bring him home SXE orange county shirts from shows. I never thought he could be so dumb. My mom makes stupid comments when he comes down the stairs

So I am leaving today for my lovely Nebraska Trip. i am angry because there is so many exciting things happening this weekend and I will have to miss them all. Plus, my parents are going to San Francisco wich would have meant i would be home alone. Maybe i will try to miss my plane... Anyway, everyone have a terrific weekend see you when I get home I will bring back plenty of corn and maybe a nice redneck male.

That pretty much brings you up to date with my highly exciting life!

Sat, 18 May 2002 22:34:30 GMT

Right now everyone is getting ready for prom so i will write in my live journal.
This week has been ok, I have worked far too much. Limited Too is filming a commercial tonight so everything had to be perfect. There has been all these camera crew people and dancers walking around our store, it's amusing.
I loathe fifth period more and more as the year goes on. I hate staying at lunch and i hate the kids in my class. Yesterday i yelled at some kids and i really felt like a mother. This guy in my class is the only other junior and he gets all the freshman boys in the class to love him by making fun of other kids. We had a sub yesterday and he was making weapons out of paper and preparing to throw them at some random kid that has never ever done anything to anyone. He went to pour coke down the kids pants and i got up, took the coke out of his hand, tore up all of his weapons, and took his paper away from him. He called me "Satan". I dont know why i flipped out on him but i just hate when people to that to kids that dont deserve it.
Last night I was dying to see Star Wars. Hooter and I went to the spectrum after work and the only time we could get into was the midnight showing. So we walked around and waited and waited and waited. We saw Andy, joe, liam, mike and brett. Liam kept saying "I am going tomorrow night", over and over again. I was confused then finally he informed me he was going to 18 visions. It will be a definite wierd occurence to see him there tonight. The movie was alright. It wasnt as good as i thought it was going to be. i really liked the yoda ending scene. We got stuck next to this star wars nut and it was fun to pick his brain. He told us he drove all the way from long beach to see it for the third time to get a different perspective of the movie.
So tonight i am seeing 18 visions it should be fun!

Random

Tue, 14 May 2002 21:58:45 GMT

Mothers day we had to go down to the country club as usual. I dont really know why my family gets so much joy out of it there it's always the same. I should have known we were going to be eating with Berit's family, it being the club and all but i didn't think about it. I had no idea Gretal was home from college. It was fun to make fun of her cause she needs it now that Berit isnt home. She wants me to go to an NSYNC concert with her and to a bar. She said she would get me free drinks, sounds like fun!

Team Drama: The girls are all being childish about our uniforms. I should have known it would be this way. I dont want the team captain title anymore. Its so stupid Desi, lauren and I go down to Hank Loyds and they have absolutely nothing to pick from. So lauren and i decide on the black nike dress and desi wants the white nike shirt and black skirt. They are both really boring so why even get mad over this. So Desi is mad that I am not siding with her. So we get all the other girls involved and i am like this is my flipping choice why are you stupid girls whining. I dont want to be in the middle of this stuff.
What else...
Desi and I have to go to lunch with our old coach unger that got fired for sexual harrasment over a girl on our team. She has been calling the house so much that desi and I just decided to take her out. She has had a really bad life and it just keeps getting worse. About a year ago I remember seeing our her husband with a girl on El Toro's tennis team at the mall. I was in victoria secret and they both waved at me and I thought it was wierd. Turns out they have had a three year affair. were talking a senior tennis player at el toro high school with our coaches husband. Ick... wierd stuff, so i guess she will tell us all about it thurday.

weekend

Sun, 12 May 2002 16:06:53 GMT

Friday night was pretty fun-

I had to work till 7 and i was bitter cause i hadnt made any plans for the evening. I kept getting random visitors to see me at the store so i became happy. then this hot guy came into my work and there really are never guys coming in and i tripped over a hanger and fell down right where he was standing. he helped me up but i made an ass out of myself. Five minutes before i am off breanna shows up and tells me her parents dropped her off at the mall and we are hanging out tonight.

When we leave we run into Sally, Tim and Jenny. it was very strange to see Tlt local Sally at mission viejo mall.

Tim then drove us home and i left my car at the mall thinking I would get in later. So at home Emma decides she is coming down. Sally, tim and jenny leave when emma gets to my house and emma, bre and i go pick up Amber.

We just drove a bunch of random places but it was really fun. We went to k-scope and emma scared some little girls. Then we called brian gately and brian landon and were going to meet them at aliso In and Out. We got there before them and when we walked inside we see Meg, Carry, and Carrys b-friend. We are like trying not to laugh and not say things like, "Carry likes to eat humans In and Out".

Finally we leave there and dont dont want to meet the brians at aliso theatres so we go to spectrum. at the spectrum emma is bouncing off the walls. I have never seen her so hyper in my life. She is going up to all these random people and bowing and hugging them. Amber, Bre and i were just laughing forver.

So we leave spectrum and go to del taco cause Amber and bre want to see the baseball guys. We get there and Emma is still hyper. were listening to music very loud and screaming out the car windows. Breanna and Amber are embarrased but loving it just the same. Emma walks right up to Ambers ex-boyfriend and Bre's crush and just starts bowing to them and stuff.

I get a call from Brad and I figure we should go over to his house so i can get my cd's and movies back from like 4 months ago. I havent spoken with him for almost two months so it was kinda abnormal.

Before we leave del emma flashes half the capo baseball team for money.

At Brads we just listened to some new band he likes. I feel like were all just different people now. Four months ago it berit, jay, brad and i every weekend just doing random things. Now we have all gone our seperate ways. He is pretty bitter toward jay i think those two will never be friends again. I sware he says the word straightedge, sell out, sold out, and tough far too much. Still it was nice to see him, just wierd.

Back at my house emma spent the night.

Saturday: I had to wake up early for SAT testing. I didnt have a car because i forgot to pick mine back up at the mall. i get to saddleback and I take the test. In the middle of this practice test the girl next to me starts crying. So I ask her what is wrong and i see her shaking and stuff. "Could you come outside with me", she asked. I barely knew her at all but i felt sorta bad. So we go outside and she starts crying harder and its not like i know her or anything. She tells me she just came home from the mental hospital and her pills are making her feel wierd. I tried to be super kind but i was kinda like "tell me something i havent heard". So she pulls up her sleeves and shows me her razor cuts. it was seriously one of the sickest things i have ever seen. i dont know why these kind of people attract to me.

So after school i got the cheerleader girl to drop me off at the mall to get my car. I couldnt find it anywhere in the structure and i was flipping out cause i was scared someone took it since my mom had yelled at me about it. So i dont have my cell phone and i am in my santa clause night gown and I have to go into the mall and into limited too to use the phone. everybody is staring at me cause i am wearing santa clause pj's. I call mall security and what not and go back out to the structure to look one last time. This time i find the echo and everything is fine i just had panicked.

I spent the rest of the day at work and had a fun sleeping night but kept getting interupted by people. jenny was supposed to spend the night cause her mom was out of town. She ended up not sleeping here cause my parents had said her boyfriend Tim couldnt spend the night too. So we just watched movies and they went back to her house.

So there is my weekend for you. i get to go get ready for a big mothers day brunch at the club now.

Long weekend

Sun, 05 May 2002 23:13:33 GMT

The end of this week was pretty interesting minus my head cold.

thursday- i got in trouble at SAT school for not socializing with the other classmates. I told my teacher I did not enjoy their conversations and was not there to make friends. I hate the kids in my class and if i have to hear the annoying black cheerleader sing her rap tunes one more time I swear i am going to take a gun to her head and end her life. So I really got a laugh out of it cause he said I was never going to amount to anything cause I have no social skills.

Friday- This was a very long day. I felt sick but I went to school anyway. There was an assembly. I enjoyed the asshole comments people were making. Then I went home cause i didn't want to go the fifth period and I used my illness as an excuse to my mom.
Around 4 I left and picked up Emma in Placentia. The directions were good until I got off the 91. After that i was just driving aimlessly around the city. I knew I was there cause I kept having to wait at red lights for trains to pass. I finally got there and i felt stupid for having to go to a gas station for directions when it was so easy.
So we came back to my house and went to 7-11 cause we had nothing better to do. We got the ketchup/rock gift idea and had lots of fun with that. We proceeded on to Joe's house and stood in his corner for quite some time talking to his animals. We were stubborn and wouldn't leave the corner. For some reason people just kept coming and going we stood there being childish and laughing at his guests. Then emma, joe, ryan and i went to the spectrum. We saw Deuces Wild and Emma and i complained over how uncomfortable our seats were the whole time. The love interest was boring but i guess there was some good fight scenes. So after the movie we dropped the guys off and came back to my house.
Saturday- we went to Taco Loco and I forced Emma to eat a tofu mushroom burger. We went to Tippe Canoes and tried on funny vintage dresses. Then we got another crazy idea and went to mission mall but were unlucky there. I am glad emma came down it was fun.
After I dropped Emma back off at home a bunch of the boys tennis team came over. I didnt want to hang out i was too tired so i slept and let them play pool and watch movies for hours. They woke me up to go to a 10:30 movie with them and i felt bad for never coming downstairs so i went. We saw the sweetest thing or something like that. i saw maybe two scenes out of the whole movie and fell asleep. I guess it was prety pointless for me to go.
Sun- I went to see spiderman with the family. i really havent gone to a movies since Orange County and this weekend I have been three times. then I went to a college fair with my dad. I swear he only gets excited when i talk to him about college. He decided to tell me he booked me a plane to go play tennis with the girls team in Nebraska over memorial weekend. I am ready to scream i havent hit in 5 months and he wants me to show off my lack of skills to these girls. It sucks and i have to miss good shows that weekend but at least i get to go alone it should be an adventure.

Mon, 29 Apr 2002 21:16:43 GMT

I guess it has been a while since i posted anything. The weeks have been going by much faster than before. I guess i dont really miss Berit and Jay as much as I used to. I haven't even talked to Brad since they left but i guess he has changed. I was scared this would happen that I would lose more than one friend but i guess it has made me much closer with other friends.
Emma and i have been hanging out much more she is so outgoing and funny. I have had an interesting time going to shows with her. A couple weeks ago we went to bleeding through and this weekend we went to see taken. well, actually we left when taken played but radiation4 and as hope dies were good. We talked to joe oates that was plenty interesting.
We have been fighting with Carrie I think we are just bored it's funny how she keeps reacting.
I started SAT school and my teacher is a creep. He asked me to go to Taco Loco with him after class. I didnt want to go but i felt bad. Yeah, Sam this is how girls get hurt. So i am stupid i went anyway. I dont know he creeps me out. He says he has read some of my poems i write in class and they are inspiring. He also asked me to smoke a cigar with him wich was really wierd. I was like, "no thanks pal".
I have been talking to the tennis guys a lot most of them will be graduating soon and even though we havent hung out lately they were still a really big part of my life. I dyed Hooters hair last week blue/black. I have never dyed anyones hair so i was really impressed with my skills.
Work is work it sucks but i am making money so I am content. I just want to have fun the rest of the school year. It is scary that so many poeple will be leaving soon.
18 visions and Prom ended up being on the same night boo hoo. At first I didnt really want to go to prom but now i really do. I dont know why i guess i am just a girl. I guess prom seems fun if i can go and be with friends and make fun of all the tacky rituals. It would be ideal if i could get dressed up, go to prom for a couple hours and then run and see 18 visions set, but i guess that is my dream. I will most likely just end up at the show but i can dream for now.
So thats my week tomorrow i am getting my braces off i am excited cause these suckers have been on since 7th grade i feel like my entire developed life i have had this metal on my teeth.

Tue, 23 Apr 2002 04:53:43 GMT

So I got my weekly call from Mrs. Stingley. She said that she received a letter from Berit apologizing for the things she had done. It wasn't like Berit at all the way she was talking. Mrs Stingley was shocked and scared that she was being brain washed. In her letter she said to tell Sam and her parents that she is heartfully sorry for causing me any trouble and sorry for always taking me away from important thing like tennis, school and work. She also said to tell Robbie to get a job and get his life in order. It really didnt seem like her. The only thing that sounded like her was that she said the place was Nazi Germany and they were using propaganda on her. So I guess i dont get to talk to her secretly on the phone like her mom was going to arrange cause now Berit thinks its unethical. Omg the lsat person in the world that would say that is Berit. Well, i just hope she doesn't come home preaching to me.
As for Jay, Liam says he will be home thursday but his mom said he would be gone a month who knows. I guess i am done talking about the boarding school children since thats all we livejournal kids do.

Sun, 21 Apr 2002 06:19:30 GMT

Well I am getting great joy out of this conversation that emma sent to me. It only proves how stupid Carrie is.

BreakMyHeartXXX: could u not point at my boyfriends tattoo or talk to him at shows
SXe Kid Veggie: i didn't
BreakMyHeartXXX: yes yes you did
BreakMyHeartXXX: bleeding thru
SXe Kid Veggie: could you mind your own business and not be such a fucking slut?
SXe Kid Veggie: and actually buy a bra?
BreakMyHeartXXX: could u go get raped again?
SXe Kid Veggie: could you go talk more shit on berit so i can bash your face in?
BreakMyHeartXXX: i didn't say anything about her to you so don't act like u know that situation
SXe Kid Veggie: and make it look nicer then it is now?
SXe Kid Veggie: well i didn't talk to your ugly ass boyfriend so you can mind your own fucking business
SXe Kid Veggie: unless your boyfriend is david king or chad.. i didn't
BreakMyHeartXXX: umm actually u did
SXe Kid Veggie: um... actually i didn't
BreakMyHeartXXX: u pointed at his neck tattoo
BreakMyHeartXXX: he told me and sam told me
BreakMyHeartXXX: so you're saying sam lied?
SXe Kid Veggie: im not saying shit
SXe Kid Veggie: im saying you need a fucking bra and to get hit in the face so u look semi nice
SXe Kid Veggie: what the fuck are you talking about?
SXe Kid Veggie: get your fucking facts straight and look into shit before you try to start shit you fucking slut
BreakMyHeartXXX: 1) how am i slut? 2) what are you talking about? 3) i have my facts straight bitch
SXe Kid Veggie: whatever
SXe Kid Veggie: fuck off
SXe Kid Veggie: and buy a fucking bra
SXe Kid Veggie: cuz i don't have time to deal with this petty shit

Last week at Bleeding Through we saw Carrie. I dont really know her at all I just know that Meg and Jen are friends with her. Last summer when Berit and I sorta had a fight with Jen and Meg here comes this random Carrie girl trying to get into the middle of it. She would send Berit hate mail and stuff thinking that she was tough and was protecting jen and meg somehow. i stayed away from her cause i really thought she was pointless to get to know. Berit on the other hand sorta got in a war with her. This convo is really funny because I really dont know why she is talking to emma and trying to start shit again. Emma and I were merely walking around at the show and she pointed to a tatoo. i turned around and said to her "Oh that's that Carrie girls boyfriend". Thats all zippo end of the story. It's cute that she is like all trying to be protective of him and stuff when we dont want him nor did we try to talk to him. Anyway my fav line is when Carrie says "I am not a slut". hmm.... lets see about two weeks ago I was spending the night at jens cause her mom was out of town and she wasnt allowed to be home alone. I am sleeping downstairs nd i get woken up by jennys brother and he is like "who is in the fucking house". So when jenny comes home we all go upstairs and carrie is up there sleeping with some guy and the next morning shecomes in the room and says "he and I had sex and yesterday i had sex with this other guy. i am turning into a slut".Well I am sorry but I dont have very much respect for her at all. All this time even when i am forced to be in the same house with her i have never talked to her once. I have never said one thing to her. I take that back i recall being at islands and asking to see her tatoo. But really I have never had a talk or been formally introduced to her. so its pretty damn funny that she acts like i said something to her in her crazy psycho lecture to emma. Anyway I dont want to let her take up too much of my time. I just find this highly amusing tonight. If you want to contact her and tell her she needs a bra go to: http://www.melodramatic.com/users/breakmyheartxxx/

Sat, 20 Apr 2002 17:34:39 GMT

So yeah I am sitting here waiting for my mother to get off the phone so i can go get drapes for my room. This week has been pretty boring and nothing too exciting is happening.
Yesterday i went to the doc for my arm and I can't hit for another month. I didn't feel like going back to school so I went with my uncle jp to look at new houses. We looked at the grossest, smelly, bug infested places i have ever seen. he likes to re-do places so he was finding them quite nice. he decided on this piece of shit house near the lake again and i begged him to let me take him a few places. So I took him to Ladera Ranch. He wasn't talking to me at this time cause he was being stubborn about getting the crappy house. So we went down to ladera and we found these really cool town homes. We walked into the first one and he didn't want to act like he liked it cause he is a baby. It was called the "Loft" so when you go inside the door there is this staircase and the house is upstairs. It was so cool and modern. So to make this long story short we were there for hours and he bought it. So i am really excited cause he actually listened to my advice for once. I want to buy my own house but i guess I will have to wait for a very long time. last night really sucked I drove to Carona and back cause Bre wanted to go see drinking friends at Carl Hanky. Well thats all i go to say right now i have had a very boring week.

No 3rd period boredom

Wed, 17 Apr 2002 17:50:43 GMT

Braces off April 30th I am happy!

Bored again and wasting time

Tue, 16 Apr 2002 18:32:52 GMT

*****Basics*****
1. Your full name: Samantha Megan Woog
2. Nickname(s): Sam, sami, woogy, samers
3. Parents' Names:Phil and Grace
4. Place of: A: Birth- Newport Beach, CA: Hometown- mission Viejo
C: Current residence- mission viejo
5. Fill in blanks about your appearance A: Hair color- brown B: Eye color- green C: Height- 5'2 D: Where do you go to school? Capo Valley HS. 5. Grade: 11
6. Where do you go to church? a catholic one
7. How many candles were on your last birthday cake? 17
8. When do you usually blow them out? March 9
9. Who is (are) your... A: Best Friend(s)-too many
10. Living arrangement:Mom, Dad, brother.
*****Favorites*****
1. Animal: not too much of an animal person i like jays turtle and my dog.
2. Movie Quote: "Fuck me gently with a chainsaw"- Heathers
3. Fav.Store: dont know.
4. Fav Feeling: loved
5. Shoes: steve maddens, cathy jeans and adidas tennis shoes
6. Person to be around: depends on my mood.
7. Disney Character: Snow White
8. Favorite board game: Monopoly but i always cry after i play.
9. Month: Usually march but this march was the worst of my life.
10. Book/writer: Wuthering Heights, Emily Bronte
11. Sibling:i only have one to choose from so i guess Russ man.
12. Cartoon: Strawberry shortcake, daria and care bears.
13. Movie(s) of all time: gidget, gigi, and 16 candles.
14. Day of the year? March 9
15. Actor or Actress? john Cusack
16. Fragrance: none
17. Article of clothing: pea coat, black gap jeans
18. Physical feature of the opposite sex: arms
19. Zoo exhibit: sea world cause there is other stuff to do besides look at animals.
20. Place to be: my friends ranch in oceanside,indian wells basically anywhere different from here.
21. Least favorite place to be: my aunts house.
22. Place to be massaged: um my back I guess.
23. Kitchen Appliances: oven
24. Childhood memory: watching dad play big tennis tournaments from the stands.
25. Color: green
26. Song: depends on mood right now at ths moment it would have to be "reflections"- from autumn to ashes.
27. Vacation spot and why: Jamaica cause i got to play tennis with crabs on the court or italy cause it was an adventure.
28. Radio station: 101.1 cause its the only thing i can sing along with.
29. Place to hang out: i dont know at a show, at a friends house at a fast food place sadly.
30. Italian dish: pasta
31. Campbell's Soup: clam chowder
32. Web site: www.manbeef.com
33. Childhood toy: Barbie cruise boat and my barbie rock star stage.
34. Number: 3
*****In the last 24 hours have you...*****
1. Had a serious talk? yea
2. Hugged someone? yup
3. Gotten along well with your parents? yea
4. Fought with a friend? no they arent here
5. Gone on a date? no
6. Gone to the movies? no
7. Gone to the mall? yes i work there
8. Eaten an entire box of Oreos? no
9. Eaten sushi? no
10. Been on stage? no
11. Been dumped? no
12. Had someone be unfaithful to you? no
13. Watched the Smurfs? no
14. Made homemade cookies? yes
16. Killed anyone? no but i thought about it, jk
17. Thought about someone that you haven't seen in like a month? yes!!!
*****Just questions*****
1. Coffee or Coffee Ice Cream: Coffee
2. Chocolate milk or plain milk: plain milk
3. Bath or shower: shower
4. Cursive or print:print
5. Gold or silver: silver
6. Paranoid or Cautious: Cautious
7. Blondes or brunettes: brunettes cause i am one
7. Jammies or naked: pj's i am not that comfortable with myself
8. Which is more important: Personality or looks?. Personality
9. How many times have you moved from a house? 3 times
11. Thing(s) you like about yourself: uhh i dont think im too dramatic, i try not to be, i HATE drama girls.
12. Thing(s) you don't like about yourself: the way i run away from relationships
13. Reason you last shed tears and when: today when i saw chris jackson parading around in my fata sweatshirt
14. Last thing you ate: pop tart
15. Favorite drink: pepsi twist
16. What makes you happy: Friends and mobil runs at 3 am.
17. Most humiliating experience: it happened in class with mohit and my old crush a very long time ago.
18. Favorite sport to play: tennis
19. Favorite sport to watch: tennis this is getting really tedious.
20. Most specialist award you've ever received: Coaches award every year haha. does a trophey count?
worst sickness you've ever had: Berit gave me a cup of pond water instead of regular water once and i didnt know so i drank it. The next day I fainted on the courts and went to the hospital and i was really sick.
22. What's on you mousepad? its just plain blue.
23. First thing you think when you wake up: Not Mrs. french again
24. Future Child(ren) name(s): i dont know thats not really easy to answer.
25. Ever nearly killed someone on accident: most likely in the car.
26. Dream car: anything other than the echo. that car in the movie better off dead is really cool, but i dont remember what it is.
27. Name of Dream car: dont remember cars dont matter that much.
28. In terms of Cup-of-Noodles, veggies or no veggies? veggies
31. Piercings:4 ear piercings
32. Tattoos: none
33. Ever been out of the country?yup, jamaica, switzerland, italy
mexico.
34. Old Flame you would consider taking back: i wouldn't consider
38. What color is your bedroom: purple and green
39. Where you see yourself in five years: in college, nebraska
42. Person you're friends with that lives farthest away: Berit
43. What would you rather be doing now? sleeping
45. What is the first thing you notice about someone? their hair
46. Are you popular? with my friends
47. Are you pretty? i dont like these kind of questions
48. Do you have your own phone line? yes does that make me cool?
49. What is your favorite word to say/phrase to say? oh dear
50. For those of you who are multitasking, what else are you doing right now other than answering this? listening to music
51. What song are you listening to? home free- dan fogelberg cause my dad put this into the comp and it is rather calming.
52. What are you wearing? skirt and shirt
53. Do you/Would you dye your hair? yea i have a little of it dyed now.
54. Bad habits: running away from situations
55. What do you wish you'd done? checked yes in the box (only some will get)
56. Fetish: i dont think i have one
57. Do you have one of THOSE voices? no
59. Do you have a license/permit:license
60. Ever been kissed: wouldnt you like to know
61. What is your best physical quality: the way my arm pops
62. Nonphysical: i dont know
63. Describe your perfect Date: just being with someone i care about would be fine with me.
64. What is your idea of the perfect guy? someone who stands up for what they believe in and holda their own opinions. someone who is confident.
65. Would you ever ask someone out? no i am not a fan of rejection thanks.
66. What is the first thing you notice about someone? this question was already asked!
68. What do you want to be when you grow up? journalist
69. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no
70. Do you want children? yea
71. What is on the walls of your room? come over and see
72. What's the last CD you bought? himsa
73. What time do you wake up in the morning? 5
74. What makes you laugh? emma dancing
75. What makes you really angry? stalking
76. If you could play any instrument, what would it be? drums
77. If there were a movie made about your life, what actor/actress would play you? molly ringwald but she doesn't look like me.
78. Who would play me (the person that sent it to you)? i dont know i took this from meghann so probably molly ringwald cause she looks like meghann.
79. Do you believe in the afterlife? scary thought, i guess
80. What super power would you want to have? know what people are thinking
81. Who was your first love and how old were you? well i dont know that it was love but the closest thing to it was when i was 15 going on 16.
82. What song/poem/story do you wish you had written? "Short stories tragic endings"- fata cause it brings out feelings of question 81.
83. If you have a car….What's in the trunk of your car: my video camera it just keeps rolling around in there and i never use it.
85. Most memorable date: dont know
86. Most memorable night (good or bad): well, i think the night we drove back from palm springs just jay, berit and i. it was memorable cause we wont be able to do that for a long time.
87. Most memorable grade:A+ in math
88. Most memorable vacation: cruise to mexico cause lots happen on boats.
89. Who can you sit and talk to for hours without ever getting bored? uncle jp
90. Who puts the biggest smile on your face? you
91. Have you ever been arrested?no
92. Have you ever cheated on a significant other?nope
93. Have you ever played on a team? yep
94. Have you ever been skinny-dipping? no but i have been with people that were.
95. Do you have glasses? fake ones
96. Do you have someone that you will always love but never tell a soul? yea
97. Do you have braces? of course i do dummy
98. Do you have any pets? 1 dog named star
99. What color underwear do you have on right now? purple
100. How is the weather like right now? cold
101. Last person u talked to on the phone? desiree
102. Do you like the person that sent u this? hell no, jk
103. Do u like to dance? depends on music
104. Are you shy to ask someone out? too shy to even say yes haha
105. Phone or in person? in person
106. Secret hobbies: making my bed
107. Length of time you have been living at your current residence: 5 years
108. What book are you reading right now? Huck Finn
109. What is most important in life? to be a good person i guess 110. Storms-cool or scary? cool
111. If you could meet one person, dead or alive, who would it be? no clue
112. If you could have any job what would it be? a film director
113. Fingers on the right keys? i guess
114. What's under your bed? journal
115. Been toilet papering? yea
116. Are you a virgin?yea
117. Who is the last person you got mail from before this? Didn’t you already ask me that???
118. Last Movie you saw in theater: panic room
119. Next movie you wanna see in the theaters? ET
120. What is in your CD player right this second: Like I said Dan Fogelberg, scary huh?
121. Do you like someone right now? yea
122. Do they know? no
123. Do they like you? dont know
124. Do you enjoy surveys? sometimes
125. Did you enjoy this one (all 125 questions)? it was way long